That sound like it will do some serious growth. How long donyou wear the extender?
Progress thread Journey To Massive Cock - Colossaltitan's Journey
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That sound like it will do some serious growth. How long donyou wear the extender?
colossaltitan
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colossaltitan
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Today's Session
And the isolated compression squeeze sessions just keep getting better and better. The expansion I feel and the erection level I'm able to execute them at now is on a whole other level.
I'm feeling a bit better as a whole nowadays. The only real debilitating part of my life now is my hair loss. I'm on minoxidil and finasteride which I started about a week and a half ago and I'm going through the initial shed phase of it which is really doing a number on my confidence, but I'll persevere if it means any chance of saving my follicles and renewing my confidence again.
As for my wellbeing, it's not as bad as it was. I've often dealt with times thinking that everyone around hates me and that I am just unlovable, mostly as a result of overthinking I presume but then again I can't read minds. I still get that now sometimes, any interaction that ends in a certain way can get that feeling going again "Do they hate me? Did I offend them in any way? Is she disgusted by me?", it really sucks. But I'm powering through.
PE has really given me something to dedicate myself to for the long run, combine that with my lifting my newfound love for MMA fighting, and my yearning for Buddhism despite being time restricted nowadays, it's making me feel better and better. PE is something that's made me think and learn and meet new people that are in it for the same desires, and I love it.
Sorry for the little sob story but I hope you enjoyed reading my current session
- Weight hanger 1hr 30 min+
- DLD Blasters 10 minutes
- Bundled stretches 10 minutes
- Piss pulls
- Bathmate HydroExtreme 5x3
- Isolated compression squeeze 20+ minutes
And the isolated compression squeeze sessions just keep getting better and better. The expansion I feel and the erection level I'm able to execute them at now is on a whole other level.
I'm feeling a bit better as a whole nowadays. The only real debilitating part of my life now is my hair loss. I'm on minoxidil and finasteride which I started about a week and a half ago and I'm going through the initial shed phase of it which is really doing a number on my confidence, but I'll persevere if it means any chance of saving my follicles and renewing my confidence again.
As for my wellbeing, it's not as bad as it was. I've often dealt with times thinking that everyone around hates me and that I am just unlovable, mostly as a result of overthinking I presume but then again I can't read minds. I still get that now sometimes, any interaction that ends in a certain way can get that feeling going again "Do they hate me? Did I offend them in any way? Is she disgusted by me?", it really sucks. But I'm powering through.
PE has really given me something to dedicate myself to for the long run, combine that with my lifting my newfound love for MMA fighting, and my yearning for Buddhism despite being time restricted nowadays, it's making me feel better and better. PE is something that's made me think and learn and meet new people that are in it for the same desires, and I love it.
Sorry for the little sob story but I hope you enjoyed reading my current session
squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
This is post-worries in social anxiety. I have that too from time to time (it's hard to deal with)...but lately there have been a change in me, where I simply do not care any longer.
Most people have this built in more or less...but not as extensive as in maybe social anxiety. But if you would dig in their subconscious you would find that most people think about this in some level.
This comes from our ancestors. If we didn't where liked in the group, there where a risk of being left alone away from the group = death. So we needed to be liked to survive. But this is not valid in todays world, becouse we do not know everyone we meet on a personal level, and we do not need to know them in order to survive in the society.
Most people are in their own mind most of the time, and do not think about you as you are thinking about them. When you realize this...you can start to let go of this. I know it's hard, but it's possible. When we worry about what everyone else are thinking about us, it's most likely that we try to mind control them in a strange way. There is no way we know what others are thinking about us. We most likely are putting a negative image on ourselves doing this.
But I believe this behavior comes from trauma.
It's in our mind this happens. I believe it's a thinking pattern from our past life (trauma; like getting abused as a child) that messes with us in the present moment.
A mind hack I use to get around it is that, nobody knows who I really am (I don't even know
= we change from moment to moment, because we are evolving as a person), or who I was in the past. They only see me for who I am in this present moment. All this can help you to let go of the social anxiety. They can't hear your thoughts, and you can't hear their thoughts. So their version of you is you in this present moment. You are enough as you are. My belief is that social anxiety is us trying to please everyone else, in order to be perfect to them. But perfect do not exist.Cognitive-behavioral therapy is a good therapy where you get help by professionals, to help you correct your behaviors, and therefor impact how you feel about yourself in relation to others. The key is to get out of your own head and see other people. Really see them.
About your hair loss. I kinda know what you are feeling. I had let my hair grow long, and I just shaved it away. But I know it's just my perception of me that's messed up. I have shaved my head in the past with no problems, so I will adjust. Not the same as
you have...but I believe I'm sniffing on the same feeling. Before this head shave, I was shaving my head 8+ years.
Maybe there are something in you that can't accept yourself and truly love yourself. My guess is that you are looking good in that bald look, but you are the only one that sees the bad in it. With a bald head you look bad ass, especially if your body are muscular and fit. Maybe you can work on that instead.
I believe this channel can help you.
I'm just trying to help and maybe help you see diffrent perspective in all of this.
colossaltitan
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This post really made me tear up @squirt_inducer_man . Thank you for the help and the insight, some amazing wisdom you carry there. You're 100% right about most people being in their head about themselves rather than thinking about me, it's just a difficult part of life that everyone has to accept and I haven't caught on yet.This is post-worries in social anxiety. I have that too from time to time (it's hard to deal with)...but lately there have been a change in me, where I simply do not care any longer.
Most people have this built in more or less...but not as extensive as in maybe social anxiety. But if you would dig in their subconscious you would find that most people think about this in some level.
This comes from our ancestors. If we didn't where liked in the group, there where a risk of being left alone away from the group = death. So we needed to be liked to survive. But this is not valid in todays world, becouse we do not know everyone we meet on a personal level, and we do not need to know them in order to survive in the society.
Most people are in their own mind most of the time, and do not think about you as you are thinking about them. When you realize this...you can start to let go of this. I know it's hard, but it's possible. When we worry about what everyone else are thinking about us, it's most likely that we try to mind control them in a strange way. There is no way we know what others are thinking about us. We most likely are putting a negative image on ourselves doing this.
But I believe this behavior comes from trauma.
It's in our mind this happens. I believe it's a thinking pattern from our past life (trauma; like getting abused as a child) that messes with us in the present moment.
A mind hack I use to get around it is that, nobody knows who I really am (I don't even know
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is a good therapy where you get help by professionals, to help you correct your behaviors, and therefor impact how you feel about yourself in relation to others. The key is to get out of your own head and see other people. Really see them.
About your hair loss. I kinda know what you are feeling. I had let my hair grow long, and I just shaved it away. But I know it's just my perception of me that's messed up. I have shaved my head in the past with no problems, so I will adjust. Not the same as
you have...but I believe I'm sniffing on the same feeling. Before this head shave, I was shaving my head 8+ years.
Maybe there are something in you that can't accept yourself and truly love yourself. My guess is that you are looking good in that bald look, but you are the only one that sees the bad in it. With a bald head you look bad ass, especially if your body are muscular and fit. Maybe you can work on that instead.
I believe this channel can help you.
I'm just trying to help and maybe help you see diffrent perspective in all of this.
I do believe that I have this from the trauma I experienced in my past and in other instances that occured during my life, it sucks. But I know that as long as I have something in my life that I love to do and that I can continue to make progress on that I can get past this and live a better life.
This actually just occurred today as a matter a fact. I had a few hours of lab work and one of the girls I was working with was a very beautiful girl who was very kind to me, and one of the guys was also a fighter just like myself who was one of the most hospitable I've ever met, and even after a good interaction with them I still felt like total shit afterwards thinking that I said some shit or made a comment that stuck that I won't get away from that'll make them dislike me. Man, the tricks that our minds play on us eh? I suppose it's just about taking to heart the things you mentioned and accepting that they think about me a lot less than I do about them, this is really a skill that I need to master.
Thank you so much brother, really means the world to have some support while I'm on this crazy journey of penis enhancement, self improvement, and all of the above. It really meant the world to have that message from you.
PS: I'm not actually completely bald, just been losing my hair since a young age but I've still held onto enough to rebuild. I just started Finasteride 2 weeks ago and have been using minoxidil for a few months already. Hopefully this time next year my hair will be fuller in front which'll be enough to give me back that spark of confidence I've lost over the years.
squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
This brotherhood is amazing in this way. We can support each other not just in increasing our penis size, but also other aspects of our life.
I'm a completely diffrent man, after joining this brotherhood. It's amazing actually.
You are not alone in this. I'm still dealing with post worrying from social anxiety/interactions to this day (but not at work = kinda strange), for me I know it is from past trauma. I even "messed up" a situation at the gym yesterday. 2 young women where after me (in a good way), but I was just ignoring their social signs, and their wants to talk to me.
At the gym. My penis with my penis elongation wrap was hanging big and out there (under my gym shorts), so not strange they wanted to talk to me.
... I messed up...but no worries...next time. Learn from every social interaction. I was just in my head and felt stressed out, instead of focusing on other people and be relaxed. Getting back to the present moment is key in these environments/situations (don't think about past or future, just be). Just looking at your hands, an object or a person...or something else in the inviroment, for example a bird a tree, control your breeding to a slow and deep frequency, keep a good posture, slow down your movement... can help so much in getting back to the present moment and feel more relaxed and happy.
Keeping a Journal can help so much as well. Just writing down what is on your mind. It will feel better afterwards. You can set a timer of 15-30 minutes for each time you write something down. Before you go to bed, can be a good time for this. The spelling do not matter, just empty your mind into the book. You will sleep better.
By the way, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy I really highly recommend that, If you haven't done that. You can learn so much in these sessions. For example: How to think about social interactions, and what you can do next time to be better (better for yourself).
Regarding hair. When I feel my best, I use a hair clipper (it's zeroed = blades close without cutting in the skin) and the #1 guard, then I'm left with 3 mm hair all around. But the only reason for this, is that I want to save money, barbers are expensive. I should not complain my hair growth is almost to good....sorry for saying that, somewhat insensitive.
I hope you will get back your hair with these medications. But just remember, you are still the same person even without hair. Beautiful people are seeing our soul not our haircut.
colossaltitan
New member
It's amazing how we are never truly alone in the things we experience in life, really makes you think about what others are experiencing on the inside that they never let out into the world. I really appreciate this, brother, it means the world.This brotherhood is amazing in this way. We can support each other not just in increasing our penis size, but also other aspects of our life.
I'm a completely diffrent man, after joining this brotherhood. It's amazing actually.
You are not alone in this. I'm still dealing with post worrying from social anxiety/interactions to this day (but not at work = kinda strange), for me I know it is from past trauma. I even "messed up" a situation at the gym yesterday. 2 young women where after me (in a good way), but I was just ignoring their social signs, and their wants to talk to me.
At the gym. My penis with my penis elongation wrap was hanging big and out there (under my gym shorts), so not strange they wanted to talk to me.
I was just in my head and felt stressed out, instead of focusing on other people and be relaxed. Getting back to the present moment is key in these environments/situations (don't think about past or future, just be). Just looking at your hands, an object or a person...or something else in the inviroment, for example a bird a tree, control your breeding to a slow and deep frequency, keep a good posture, slow down your movement... can help so much in getting back to the present moment and feel more relaxed and happy.
Keeping a Journal can help so much as well. Just writing down what is on your mind. It will feel better afterwards. You can set a timer of 15-30 minutes for each time you write something down. Before you go to bed, can be a good time for this. The spelling do not matter, just empty your mind into the book. You will sleep better.
By the way, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy I really highly recommend that, If you haven't done that. You can learn so much in these sessions. For example: How to think about social interactions, and what you can do next time to be better (better for yourself).
Regarding hair. When I feel my best, I use a hair clipper (it's zeroed = blades close without cutting in the skin) and the #1 guard, then I'm left with 3 mm hair all around. But the only reason for this, is that I want to save money, barbers are expensive. I should not complain my hair growth is almost to good....sorry for saying that, somewhat insensitive.
I hope you will get back your hair with these medications. But just remember, you are still the same person even without hair. Beautiful people are seeing our soul not our haircut.
I'll start to try to implement some of the things that you've told me today, try to make my life a bit easier as the days go by.
And thank you for the encouragement about the hair
I know it's silly but it does play mind games on you when you're feeling insecure. The finasteride seems to be starting to take shape slowly but surely.I guess all that's left now is for me to continue me PE, MMA, and bodybuilding journey, along with Buddhism of course whenever I find the time for it.
Thank you, brother.
colossaltitan
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Today's Session
No training today, taking a rest to let my penis recover after some BRUTAL SSJ sessions. And to let the colour return to normal of course, I already have some discoloration from the start of my Bathmate HydroExtreme use as a result of pumping on too high of a pressure, I don't mind it tough.
Tomorrow I'll return to the usual weight hanging, DLD blasters and SSJs etc.
Had a very tough time mentally today after I got back from my MMA session, was struggling very seriously with very intrusive and unhealthy thoughts but @squirt_inducer_man 's reply to one of my previous posts really eased my pain and helped me finally think straight. Something I'm very grateful for.
Haven't been experiencing any turtling despite the colder than usual weather in my country, so that's another added bonus. Looking forward to the next few training sessions to come. Shits goin get wiiiiiiiiiild!
No training today, taking a rest to let my penis recover after some BRUTAL SSJ sessions. And to let the colour return to normal of course, I already have some discoloration from the start of my Bathmate HydroExtreme use as a result of pumping on too high of a pressure, I don't mind it tough.
Tomorrow I'll return to the usual weight hanging, DLD blasters and SSJs etc.
Had a very tough time mentally today after I got back from my MMA session, was struggling very seriously with very intrusive and unhealthy thoughts but @squirt_inducer_man 's reply to one of my previous posts really eased my pain and helped me finally think straight. Something I'm very grateful for.
Haven't been experiencing any turtling despite the colder than usual weather in my country, so that's another added bonus. Looking forward to the next few training sessions to come. Shits goin get wiiiiiiiiiild!
squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
Thank you as well. This talk have really made me realized, that I need to stop letting my past get in the way of my future. It's like I hide from the future.It's amazing how we are never truly alone in the things we experience in life, really makes you think about what others are experiencing on the inside that they never let out into the world. I really appreciate this, brother, it means the world.
I'll start to try to implement some of the things that you've told me today, try to make my life a bit easier as the days go by.
And thank you for the encouragement about the hair
I guess all that's left now is for me to continue me PE, MMA, and bodybuilding journey, along with Buddhism of course whenever I find the time for it.
Thank you, brother.
Yes that's a good hack as well. When being in a social setting, start to see other people and think/wonder about their name...and think/wonder where they come from, and what they are all about.
One person can change our entire life experiences and future...that is pretty amazing. Just one conversation or just a "Hi" can change everything we are experiencing, and this will re-shape who we are, and are becoming.
Just imagine how many men's life @DLD directly and indirectly have changed, with this amazing brotherhood. We can't thank him enough (that is not possible), for everything he have done for all these years. It's amazing when you think about it.
Thank you @DLD, you are amazing.
Yeah! I know hair is tough. I kinda regret I shave my head. But I refuse to pay like 50,98USD for a haircut.
I'm happy you are are seeing some results. I can only imagine how hard it must be.
Are you doing Jujitsu?
Take care brother!
colossaltitan
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Couldn't be more accurate with that. Just the act of bringing brothers together and hearing what they have to say is enough to change the lives of many. Thats something that I'll always be grateful to @DLD for. Thank you my man!
As for your question. MMA or Mixed Martial Arts is comprised of many forms of combat ie: wrestling, Jujitsu, Muay Thai ect. There are takedowns and submissions that are used in BBJ and other grappling styles involved in the sport, so yes you can say that I am doing Jujitsu as well as other fighting styles. I've had fighting on my minds for a while now ever since I saw how the real fighters in the rings are truly some of the toughest and most skilled guys on the planet, and I just thought that I wanted to be just like those guys. On top of that it's very handy to be able to throw a proper strike and know how to fight off an opponent in any situation. You know it's a funny story:
There's this guy that I used to be great friends with who ended up in the wrong crowd and currently is in one as of this moment - drugs, drug dealing, you know the deal. Well one day he started to look at himself as this great boxer, had a huge debate with me about martial arts styles and claimed to have fought off 6 gang members with his other friend who was a boxer as well. Simply based on my pure logic and the words of my pals who chat with him more regularly, I knew that this was BS. So that's another reason I got into the arts, I wanted to show him what real fighting is. But then I realised that there really would be no point, as beating his ass would seldom likely make me feel any better about anything in my life, so now I learn MMA for myself and nothing else.
squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
Interestig. Yeah I have heard about that concept, you get humble when you do MMA...you just don't want to mess up a random person on the street. Your first defense is to run away. If they grab you...it's another story. When being really good at this you become more confident in yourself I would assume? You can handle almost any situation. If a person gets up in your face you can get him to sleep, to protect yourself and others. That's at least leagal where I live. That is, you can make people going to sleep (choking them sleepy) if the situation requires that. But you can't use excessive use of force.
That guy in that story sounds like a narcissist and a liar. These kind of people usually dilutes the stories of everything they are talking about. They try to look the best in everyone's eyes, but it backfires becouse regular smart people see through that bullshit.
Just be careful with your head...it's sensitive and light blows to the head can be dangerous. I'm studying about high-energy trauma to the head...and it's no fun to read about it, but intersesting.
Thank you my brother
lengthgrinder
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Sounds like you could take a course from me. Without bragging or anything I've always had that I dont give a fuck mindset, and it's the best thing you can have imo. About 2 years ago it was at it's peak and I was doing cold approaches and shit all the time. It's sligthly less now. Anyway...
I think a very good tactic you can use to get rid of this thought that other people always think youre weird or say some stupid shit, is a type of exposure therapy.
Let me explain. So the bottom line is People litterly don't give a fuck about you, your life, your work, what youre fuckign up to, whatever... They simply do not give a fuck and why would they? Everyone is too busy with themselves these days. The problem is all you my friend, your mind is the problem, creating situations and possibilities that are for the worse all the time. (I actually had a friend with the same problem). Stuff like "Thinking that everyone who looks at you see you as a creep". Or when having a conversation and you say something that you think was stupid and overthink it.
Litterly when I am walking in the street I stare at people all the fucking time. I want to be aware of my environment. If I see someone looking at me I don't bother, if they look at me for a seriously long time I just think -What the fuck does that guy want?. It's all about how you interpret different situations. In other words your mind is playing games with you...
So to the solution... Sorry for the long text.
You should do a form of exposure therapy. This can be done in a number of different ways depending on what youre struggling with the most, but the root cause of your problem is your mind which this exercise will greatly help with.
So you will be cold approaching random people on the street, old, young, girl, boy, teenager whatever dosent matter. You will be starting a conversation and ON PURPOSE youre going to act super fucking weird (essentially trolling them). They will prob think what the fuck is wrong with this guy BUT after your awkward conversation, they'll just walk off if not in the middle of the conversation. They'll continue their day as if nothing happend. AND let's be real here, nothing really did happen, because PEOPLE DONT bother to care... At worst youll get some shit said to you (which should be expected) but it always ends the same, they just walk off and then they are just another fucking random person in the universe of 10 billion people.
To sum this up this exercise trains your mind to stop playing games with you. It's a great start to the "I don't give a fuck mindset".
Litterly, if people don't care when you cold approach a random person and call them a stupid cunt (don't do that but it's an example), then why the fuck would they care if you fuck up a sentence in a conversation with someone or whatever....
This is just the beginning to your new personality and persona. In case your losing hair, shave that fucking shit off! I guarantee youre going to look more badass than some fucking hairthinning insecure guy. Rather get rid of that shit, improve your looks, improve your quality of life because you no longer stress about that, improve your confidence. LITTERLY everything gets improved.
When you start to adapt this mindset and slowly but surely kill your insecure, overthinking mind you can move onto other stages to further improve as well.
Such as cold approaches, group approaches or even speaking in front of a crowd in some way. Or playing an instrument at the street in front of people.
At the end of the day the only excpetion to this rule would be people you are 100% sure they care about you, like your family (which your anxiety should not apply in the first place).
Otherwise this is the rule: NOBODY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT YOU, litterly... they just don't. and YOU SHOULDN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THEM...
Keep this in mind at all times!
Hopefully this helps. Cheers
Yup pe is all about the self
squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
Yeah this is a good suggestion/good advice. Having a occupation where you are forced to converse with random people, even be screamed at from time to time is also good. It will teach you about the human nature and how to interact without caring to much.
Also: If we sit for ourselves for the majority of the day social anxiety for sure are getting worse. Shaving the scalp, can be a way for your new you. To not care and just do are good guidelines. What does this matter in 10 years. Do I want regrets in my life?
lengthgrinder
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Yep, for sure. Do you want to live a life of (not necessarly regret) but rather a - I wonder what could have been, had I just done that? The last thing you want is this thought sitting in your chair at 80 years old barely being able to move to the fucking toilet. Now that's where real depression comes in because it's too late to change.
I forgot to add: that doing this exposure therapy can be EXTREMELY challenging in the beginning and often seem as too scary or demanding of a task.
The best solution is to just push through it and do it anyway, which is obviously easier said than done.
However there are some tricks you can use.
First thing you can do is do it together with a friend, this is much easier as you are not completely on your own (progress until youn are able to).
If that is not an option you can always drink alcohol (not too much ofcourse). Then the exercise would need to be done in the weekend during the night/evening. The reason for this is because it's a way to kickstart, it's damn better to consume a couple of beers and finally get your mind cured than continuing this downward spiral. (You would of course need to progress your way to not needing alcohol for this).
The last resort if nothing else works is to get absolutely shitfaced or completely coked out and then at least try to do the exercise (be careful to not be too rude as this can be dangerous).
It's always better to start (or try) than to not do anything at all.
lengthgrinder
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squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
This is what, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is all about (but no drugs). You do this together with the person that help you with this. You get this help from the Healthcare system.
lengthgrinder
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I would not go that route, the purpose is still to adapt a "I don't give a fuck" mindset (thereby curing the negative thoughts) and I strongly believe that someone from the healthcare system can't help with this. Most likely it will be some standard socialising exercises which are completely bs and made for autistic people. I even think going this route can make the situation worse, not really helping with the problem and instead making the situation more complicated and stressing by bringing in someone from healthcare.
squirt_inducer_man
(SIM)
Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy is nothing like you are describing it as. Stop believing and know instead what you are talking about. You should not assume things of this importance. What about autistic people, why are you mentioning them here? It's not bullshit.
You are incorrect about all this. They are highly specialized in these kind of things. It's individualised to 100%. You are the one that chooses what you want and needs to work on, and have problems with in your life. You learn how to approach the things you have problems with in a systematic way, in order to deal with them in a more appropriate way.