after going on and off pe'ing and having no gains i had finally committed 2 weeks straight. then came unemployment and drinking heay cause life sucks. stopped caring about pe'ing and the alcohol just seems to have negative effects on my body. now im having such a hard time getting back and staying committed. i know i know theres no pill only my own will that can make me do it. but want a bigger dick so bad and want to enjoy a normal sex life which i dont have. something is wrong with my will power, its that way with everything i give up. how can i stay motavated, i cant seem to grab a hold of my willpower. i hear this negative voice in my head always telling me to take the easy route and just telling me to give it up, i can never win against it. should i seek counselling?