Shion
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I dunno if anyone even remembers, but it sure is a good thing accounts and memberships are Lifetime!
When I first joined this site I was in college. Was so afraid my penis and my body wouldn't be good enough for girls that I never put much effort into dating. Or was it just that? I dunno. I was actually in a long-distance relationship until Apr 2008. It did NOT go well. And it only went down from there. As it turns out, The Evergreen State College is not a good place to get a degree, but I never knew. Regardless, I did go on quite a few dates, just never any second dates. Didn't get laid until Age 24, by my now wife. To this day she's the only one I've had sex with, but found out that my penis is perfectly useable; my problems are actually the fact that I get winded too quickly. And she does too; we're both overweight.
"Useable" is a lot better than what I thought I had, both in penis and in body. But of course, I wanted more than that. It gave me a sense of perspective. Having zero sex and feeling useless every day in every way with no affordable antidepressant working at all, well, that's a recipe for disaster. Now I know where I lie on the spectrum. Things could be worse, but even if they were, there's hope for all people.
It just makes me regret how against me my own mentality was. With a bit of confidence I could have gotten laid in high school, college, plenty of times afterwards, and still gotten married to the same person and had the same experiences up to this point. Especially if I had started working out and doing a routine when I joined instead of waiting 10 years.
Fast forward to now, I'm 30, she's 25, I'm in a wonderful relationship. Our sex is functional; our bodies are not the greatest but we're also now actively working on that. Going to the gym regularly, making [VERY] slow but steady gains. I only recently started using the MityVac (I'll get to that in a minute) but more importantly a year's worth of elliptical and weight-training gave me some fitness results that provided me with more endorphins and confidence than I've EVER had! I mean we're still in poverty but, hell, if I had started lifting and running in college, I wouldn't have had depression for a decade! I would have felt like I was making something great. But guidance was hard to get back then. It was not a good time, or a good place.
I love my wife though - as far as mentioning PE she is neutral, and endlessly supportive. She is the kind of woman all PE-ers wish for; encouraging, without feeling like they're going "Yes please do it because you suck right now". In reality, at 5'5BPL I am the biggest she's had. All the other guys had more length but less girth, and sometimes less of both, on top of the fact that they were horrible people. Our relationship has gone on for a good 7 years with no problems, no fights. Clearly it is possible to find a good relationship with a mediocre body and almost no money. I wouldn't recommend doing the same thing I did though (OKCupid) cuz I lucked out. All the other girls on there...terrible people. What's also nice is that she's pansexual, so it's easy to talk to her about other girls and share adult entertainment. We even have a weekly "adult entertainment And Pancakes" (or Pan & Porncakes) where we watch adult entertainment with pancakes. Plus who knows, we may find new girls to bring home. It allows me to feel, even being married, that I'm doing PE for new experiences rather than just for my existing sex life. Plus if we ever became swingers...last thing I need is to be the lesser of two guys, as I'm sure you know how badly that would go.
In 2009 I posted more in Deep Thoughts than any other routine. I think it's because I cared less about doing the work to get a better body than I did about the philosophy that it was never the end of the world. Then again, the times and my place in it sure did end my 20s fairly quickly so I can't just sit here and think things will get better without effort. It also occurs to me that Age 20 would have been the perfect time to start some kind of routine. If I'd done PE every day up until now I'd have had unimaginable results. Goddamn, wasted youth! Well then again 30 isn't so bad. Because we've been exercising since last February, I feel stronger and more fit than I've ever felt in my teens and 20s, so it really is just a number and it's really about how you feel.
MORE IMPORTANTLY - Now that I'm seeing some gains from my running and lifting, I think it's a good time to bring PE into the mix. I bought a MityVac to begin with something. But much like exercise, I need to begin researching a routine that will work for me, so in the coming moments I'll be asking some questions and get some help. I've been reading up on DLD's SRT routine and it looks quite sound! I can offer a good perspective on losing weight, building muscle, and the seemingly double gains that result from it.
When I first joined this site I was in college. Was so afraid my penis and my body wouldn't be good enough for girls that I never put much effort into dating. Or was it just that? I dunno. I was actually in a long-distance relationship until Apr 2008. It did NOT go well. And it only went down from there. As it turns out, The Evergreen State College is not a good place to get a degree, but I never knew. Regardless, I did go on quite a few dates, just never any second dates. Didn't get laid until Age 24, by my now wife. To this day she's the only one I've had sex with, but found out that my penis is perfectly useable; my problems are actually the fact that I get winded too quickly. And she does too; we're both overweight.
"Useable" is a lot better than what I thought I had, both in penis and in body. But of course, I wanted more than that. It gave me a sense of perspective. Having zero sex and feeling useless every day in every way with no affordable antidepressant working at all, well, that's a recipe for disaster. Now I know where I lie on the spectrum. Things could be worse, but even if they were, there's hope for all people.
It just makes me regret how against me my own mentality was. With a bit of confidence I could have gotten laid in high school, college, plenty of times afterwards, and still gotten married to the same person and had the same experiences up to this point. Especially if I had started working out and doing a routine when I joined instead of waiting 10 years.
Fast forward to now, I'm 30, she's 25, I'm in a wonderful relationship. Our sex is functional; our bodies are not the greatest but we're also now actively working on that. Going to the gym regularly, making [VERY] slow but steady gains. I only recently started using the MityVac (I'll get to that in a minute) but more importantly a year's worth of elliptical and weight-training gave me some fitness results that provided me with more endorphins and confidence than I've EVER had! I mean we're still in poverty but, hell, if I had started lifting and running in college, I wouldn't have had depression for a decade! I would have felt like I was making something great. But guidance was hard to get back then. It was not a good time, or a good place.
I love my wife though - as far as mentioning PE she is neutral, and endlessly supportive. She is the kind of woman all PE-ers wish for; encouraging, without feeling like they're going "Yes please do it because you suck right now". In reality, at 5'5BPL I am the biggest she's had. All the other guys had more length but less girth, and sometimes less of both, on top of the fact that they were horrible people. Our relationship has gone on for a good 7 years with no problems, no fights. Clearly it is possible to find a good relationship with a mediocre body and almost no money. I wouldn't recommend doing the same thing I did though (OKCupid) cuz I lucked out. All the other girls on there...terrible people. What's also nice is that she's pansexual, so it's easy to talk to her about other girls and share adult entertainment. We even have a weekly "adult entertainment And Pancakes" (or Pan & Porncakes) where we watch adult entertainment with pancakes. Plus who knows, we may find new girls to bring home. It allows me to feel, even being married, that I'm doing PE for new experiences rather than just for my existing sex life. Plus if we ever became swingers...last thing I need is to be the lesser of two guys, as I'm sure you know how badly that would go.
In 2009 I posted more in Deep Thoughts than any other routine. I think it's because I cared less about doing the work to get a better body than I did about the philosophy that it was never the end of the world. Then again, the times and my place in it sure did end my 20s fairly quickly so I can't just sit here and think things will get better without effort. It also occurs to me that Age 20 would have been the perfect time to start some kind of routine. If I'd done PE every day up until now I'd have had unimaginable results. Goddamn, wasted youth! Well then again 30 isn't so bad. Because we've been exercising since last February, I feel stronger and more fit than I've ever felt in my teens and 20s, so it really is just a number and it's really about how you feel.
MORE IMPORTANTLY - Now that I'm seeing some gains from my running and lifting, I think it's a good time to bring PE into the mix. I bought a MityVac to begin with something. But much like exercise, I need to begin researching a routine that will work for me, so in the coming moments I'll be asking some questions and get some help. I've been reading up on DLD's SRT routine and it looks quite sound! I can offer a good perspective on losing weight, building muscle, and the seemingly double gains that result from it.
I remember you all them years ago, and your going to love the new way here.
