As an aside, I always take a moment after each PE session and admire the results of all the time/effort I've put-in...it's nothing short of a miracle we're able to accomplish (in all facets)
It sounds like you're navigating a journey that's both physical and mental. I've found that keeping track of my progress and thoughts using tools like Online Notepad can really help in staying focused and organized.
Your story about weight loss and personal growth is inspiring. Making changes, whether it's in diet or personal development, isn't easy. It takes commitment and a positive mindset, just like you've described. I've had my own challenges with sticking to new routines, but your determination to keep going despite resistance is admirable.