So now that I've had time to think from being off from work, I've forgotten that I have no friends and no place in life. The friends I've had faded away and when I call them it is an empty feeling since our friendships diminished. The few friends I've hung out with were losers that got high and were a waste of time. So now I'm trying to find a place to go (a bar) but I don't want to go by myself. I wish I had a wing man, or a buddy to go with. I would be able to meet people and start a new social life. But I don't, and feel completely dead to the world. I've died a lot more today than I have in a long time.