Depression: have you suffered from it?
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I went through a pretty bad phase earlier on in my life, and depression had a pretty big part in it. I was just lonely, I guess, though I'm still not completely sure of the cause(s) of my depression during that time. I was at odds with my family, didn't have many friends, was poppin pills and smoking weed 2-3 times daily, if not more, and I was just numb. It was one of the worst feelings and times I've ever experienced. Was sent, not by my choice, to rehab, didn't get anything from that except a meeting directory for NA. Kept going to meetings, talking to people, and regaining, bit by bit, pieces of my psychee and life. Now, in less than 6 days, I'll have a year clean, and I'm back on my feet. If anyone has a problem with drugs and they feel like they're ready for help, PM me for the NA hotline number and other info. Thanks
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Yes I get depressed.
I get depressed about the things I see happening around me and thinking about where we are headed.
I sometimes try to turn a blind eye to it but its screams for me to pay attention. I realize that we are born in a state of being and it is up to us to enlighten ourselfs. Some days I do wish I had been born ignorant or blind but the fact that I am not is enough to make me smile because someone higher than myself has illuminated up my soul.
For some reason I don't get depressed when someone I know dies. Never have. I just feel like I will see them soon almost as if they just went on vacation or something similiar. I guess it also reminds me that my mission on earth is not complete yet and won't be complete until I too am gone.
When I put that state of mind with what I know I realize that my life does have purpose and now I just have to put everything together to do what it is that I am supposed to do.
I get depressed about the things I see happening around me and thinking about where we are headed.
I sometimes try to turn a blind eye to it but its screams for me to pay attention. I realize that we are born in a state of being and it is up to us to enlighten ourselfs. Some days I do wish I had been born ignorant or blind but the fact that I am not is enough to make me smile because someone higher than myself has illuminated up my soul.
For some reason I don't get depressed when someone I know dies. Never have. I just feel like I will see them soon almost as if they just went on vacation or something similiar. I guess it also reminds me that my mission on earth is not complete yet and won't be complete until I too am gone.
When I put that state of mind with what I know I realize that my life does have purpose and now I just have to put everything together to do what it is that I am supposed to do.
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bigman808 said:
They are my dancing ladies :D
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colon said:
What exactly is it about your life that sucks?
Is it something that can't be changed (i.e. you live in the slums of brazil and you must hitch hike to the richer part and you surf the net from the library...)
Or is it just you feel nothing in your life is going as you want it to.
Most people who say their life sucks, fall into the second category and the reason nothing goes the way they want it to is because they are not running with a solid plan.
They say "my life sucks" then I say the obvious, "well what do you want to do with your life?" they say "I don't have a clue". If "I don't have a clue" is what you are putting out there, it is the same thing you are going to get back.
Also if you notice things that keep re-occurring in your life that are of no use to you, find out exactly where these things are coming from and move around them. I used to go through these phases quite a bit in my life and this has helped solve most of them. As long as you are taking responsibility for your actions and realizing that you are the one creating them then you will find it is easier to change them and move on. Those who are always looking outside for their answers often get stuck. I was stuck for a bit.
Too much of this world has bad things that cannot be changed simply, but most personal problems can be. Find out what you don't like in your life and find ways around it or to change it and see if that helps at all. Has helped me a great deal.
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kausion_420 said:
I feel that exact same way. I also sometimes feel slightly jealous. Dont get me wrong, I love life, but it seems as though they are going somewhere that I long to be and miss. Wondering if you have that similar feeling?
PS your girls in your sig are no longer there. It says that your domain is banned and has pics of a frog.
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jakb said:
lol trippy shit, it still shows up on mine for some reason...
kausion_420 said:
I understand. I've analyzed and criticized my life ad nauseum and I just realize I just don't care about anything anymore. I would kill myself but I'm too lazy or too scared. I want to point out that I know I sound like a pussy or just a whiny loser but I was just answering the original question.
I blame no one else for the way my life has gone.
I guess I forgot to add that I'm comfortable in the fact that my life sucks. I feel normal being depressed all the time because that's all that I have known for the past ten years. I mean, I sure wasn't like this before but sometimes you just can't help the way things turn out.
Anyways, Thanks For the advice and Good Luck , kausion_420.
i usually have very little sympathy for depressed people, 99% of people i've met who claim they are depressed are just looking for attention, and there stupid little problems could be solved with common sense. DEPRESSION IS A HUGE FASHION.
examples are like the person who thinks everyone hates them because they are "different", when really noone thinks any differently of them at all, they just wish they'd stop acting depressed.
im not claiming EVERY person with depression is like this as im sure there are serious cases, and im not trying to belittle them. those people here with serious problems you have my sympathy.
examples are like the person who thinks everyone hates them because they are "different", when really noone thinks any differently of them at all, they just wish they'd stop acting depressed.
im not claiming EVERY person with depression is like this as im sure there are serious cases, and im not trying to belittle them. those people here with serious problems you have my sympathy.
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I get depression but it is caused by several concussions i've had throughout my life. football/ wrestling/jiu-jitsu. But I take paxil and it keeps it in check.
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My junior year in highschool my dad didn't allow me to see, speak to or talk to zack via IM,phone, through a friend,etc. even if I had excellent grades. I saw a therapist, but later found out that she was leaking info to my dad, I havent been back to her since. (my dad has caused most of my depression during my life, especially during my highschool years, plus the fact that he has somewhat "disowned" me). He had abused me emotionally and kindda physically which also ofcourse, caused me depression. I even almost tried to kill myself.
I'm not trying to crave attention by telling you guys this, not at all in any way, because people always tell me that I am. You wanted to hear my story so thanks for listening, and what I juss told you guys was only the beginning.
I've learned todeal with it myself by writing or surrounding myself with loved ones and good friends But even to this day it's hard to deal with cause my mom and dad are still goingthrough a divorce.
But i'll be okay
I'm not trying to crave attention by telling you guys this, not at all in any way, because people always tell me that I am. You wanted to hear my story so thanks for listening, and what I juss told you guys was only the beginning.
I've learned todeal with it myself by writing or surrounding myself with loved ones and good friends
But even to this day it's hard to deal with cause my mom and dad are still goingthrough a divorce.But i'll be okay
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Great replies guys!
Personally I've wrestled with depression starting from age 14. There have been times when I thought I'd overcome it for good, but I still get reoccurring bouts every now and then. It is NOT the teenage angst shithead described, but rather something much more persistant and deeply rooted. I probably had the disposition (from my dad's side of the family) to go along with a multitude of triggering factors that were outside of my ability to influence and change for the better. Some things were, but not all. I had a very rough time in school back when I was around 14; I had to quit and do home schooling for half a year and change schools after that. That period of time in my life was most likely the first triggering event (but there were many factors that preceeded it, such as intense feelings of abandonment, guilt and self hatred, which in turn stemmed from certain childhood events). There have been many more after that, including having to deal with and untangle very knotted family relationships and cope with the alcoholism & difficult personality of a family member.
I am also a very self critical person, who can't stand to see himself fail in anything. Whipping yourself over even the most minute errors or failures (whether real or self perceived) certainly doesn't help, but I can't seem to change myself in that sense.
Personally I've wrestled with depression starting from age 14. There have been times when I thought I'd overcome it for good, but I still get reoccurring bouts every now and then. It is NOT the teenage angst shithead described, but rather something much more persistant and deeply rooted. I probably had the disposition (from my dad's side of the family) to go along with a multitude of triggering factors that were outside of my ability to influence and change for the better. Some things were, but not all. I had a very rough time in school back when I was around 14; I had to quit and do home schooling for half a year and change schools after that. That period of time in my life was most likely the first triggering event (but there were many factors that preceeded it, such as intense feelings of abandonment, guilt and self hatred, which in turn stemmed from certain childhood events). There have been many more after that, including having to deal with and untangle very knotted family relationships and cope with the alcoholism & difficult personality of a family member.
I am also a very self critical person, who can't stand to see himself fail in anything. Whipping yourself over even the most minute errors or failures (whether real or self perceived) certainly doesn't help, but I can't seem to change myself in that sense.
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Shafty said:
Yup, that pretty much sums it up for me... :jumpingfi
And four or five pales of bullshit!!!
I find it helps to be open and honest, if not with myself, than with someone else. (not just random people, i dont walk up to someone on the street and say 'i was going out with this girl, she cheated with me, and i fucked her friend. have a nice day') Also, i tend to polarize things; ill look at something as the best it could possibly be or the worst. That doesn't help any, but when i'm feeling any depression, or just down in the shitter, i try and think of all the good things in life. Even if there are very few, I still try and focus on them. Also, this may seem strange, i meditate every now and then. It really helps me focus and get what i need to do done. I would reccommend it to anyone who just can't seem to get shit done, or has problems with focus and/or concentration.
Btw, Vlad, wtf is that smiley doin? For me, i see it jumping up and down in flames of shit, but i could be wrong...
Btw, Vlad, wtf is that smiley doin? For me, i see it jumping up and down in flames of shit, but i could be wrong...
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I get depressed whenever i have a fight with my girlfriend or when i do something wrong and hurt somebody. My mother and father are the only two people that can truly help me and give me advice. To all the guys here that suffer from depression, i hope you will overcome it, i know what you are going through, i dont like to see anybody here going through this, please stay strong
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Shithead I see your view and had the same opinion until depression hit me. Some people just have to experience to believe it. My depression came from anxiety problems, but am doing a lot better now. You never forget it though.
against_odds21 said:
I know what you mean. I used to be one of the cool guys that would rag on the losers and misfits for just being 'losers' and 'misfits'. I used to say "you don't have to be depress if you don't want to be......life is in your hands."- then suddenly one incident happen to me that was like getting hit by a ton of bricks. I had no way of dealing with it.
I used to think I was invincible but I guess life certainly taught me a lesson I'll never forget. A decade of loneliness will certainly humble anyone. If you don't believe me, then I suggest you try it and see how strong you are.
Hopefully, I'll get luckier in my next life. :D
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