(?) Harmonic's Revenge: Perfect State of Mind

[harmonic169]

A note to the mods: If you've a choice in the matter, please don't move this thread. I'm aware of the fact that this is no doubt an inappropriate section to post this in, however, this is closer the 'appropriate' than I think most others are. Thank you.

Third time I've posted this preface, so I'ma' simplify things: Bad news -> Desire for Revenge -> Depression -> Motivation for Self Improvement. Suscinct, I think!

I've always been rather a large proponent of: "If you change your mind, you change your life." This is a very simple thing to say, but much harder to do, as I'm sure you're all well aware. Twenty or forty or a hundred years of thinking a given thing is difficult to change, no matter how hard you may want to change it. Well, I've got my own 'things' that I've held onto for the past twenty years, and I hate holding them. The first step in doing anything is the decision to do it, and I've decided to do it. In the next year I want to shake my:

• Depression
• Low Selfesteem
• Self Defeating Behavior
• Social Anxiety Disorder
• Generalized Anxiety Disorder
• And much, much more!!

So, um... How do I do that? Positive thinking and meditation and hypnosis and pot? I mean, they're all well and good but how do I really make them work? I need your guys help on this, everyone, so help me out! What mental tactics have you guys found to help defeat your mental roadblocks? Right at the moment I'm using Wendi Friesen Hypnosis tapes for the self esteem and the weightloss, but I can't seem to focus on them.

Any insight you guys could offer would be more than welcome. I have a year to become the man I want to be, and I'd love your hellp getting there.

-Harm-

 

[pullups]

lol u are really seeking revenge huh

 

[kdogg101]

A note to the mods: If you've a choice in the matter, please don't move this thread. I'm aware of the fact that this is no doubt an inappropriate section to post this in, however, this is closer the 'appropriate' than I think most others are. Thank you.

Third time I've posted this preface, so I'ma' simplify things: Bad news -> Desire for Revenge -> Depression -> Motivation for Self Improvement. Suscinct, I think!

I've always been rather a large proponent of: "If you change your mind, you change your life." This is a very simple thing to say, but much harder to do, as I'm sure you're all well aware. Twenty or forty or a hundred years of thinking a given thing is difficult to change, no matter how hard you may want to change it. Well, I've got my own 'things' that I've held onto for the past twenty years, and I hate holding them. The first step in doing anything is the decision to do it, and I've decided to do it. In the next year I want to shake my:

• Depression
• Low Selfesteem
• Self Defeating Behavior
• Social Anxiety Disorder
• Generalized Anxiety Disorder
• And much, much more!!

So, um... How do I do that? Positive thinking and meditation and hypnosis and pot? I mean, they're all well and good but how do I really make them work? I need your guys help on this, everyone, so help me out! What mental tactics have you guys found to help defeat your mental roadblocks? Right at the moment I'm using Wendi Friesen Hypnosis tapes for the self esteem and the weightloss, but I can't seem to focus on them.

Any insight you guys could offer would be more than welcome. I have a year to become the man I want to be, and I'd love your hellp getting there.

-Harm-

Hey man I know how you can get rid of the depression but it invloves me getting some info. Do you take any antidepressants? If not I have a herbal combo which works for me. Do you have some bad friends? or none? Find out your triggers also. I was in the same boat as you with these issues PM or msg me here I should be able to help you out with the mental stuff.

 

[crazyed27]

Man as far as your selfesteem and anxiety problems, this course might help you out some. I know it is meant for success with the ladies, but however, I believe if you follow it and be consistant with it, the course can help you in all aspects of your life. Because it is really about being happy with yourself and being confident, in all areas. You might want to give it a read and see if you want to go through with it.

This is the best help I can give you.


http://www.jbspencer.com/djb/djbc.doc

 

[The BTC Killer]

Hmm, sweet revenge.
I was roommates with a guy that came between a former girlfriend of mine and me. I pissed in his mouthwash, his cologne, his shampoo and stuck his toothbrush up my ass.

 

[goldmember]

...and stuck his toothbrush up my ass.

I don't know if there is a winner out of that one lol

 

[crazyed27]

Hmm, sweet revenge.
I was roommates with a guy that came between a former girlfriend of mine and me. I pissed in his mouthwash, his cologne, his shampoo and stuck his toothbrush up my ass.

Its all about between the cheeks!


Damn man you went all out!

 

[harmonic169]

To begin with: Yea, I kinda' am looking for revenge. It's petty of me, I know, but she was my first girlfriend, my first love, my first sex, and my first exgirlfriend. Do you see a reoccuring theme in that sentence? My, as in mine. I'm kidding, mostly, it's just one of those jabbing, icy feelings; the kind that start in your chest and end with your fingers shaking. It's not really a matter of wanting to hurt her, it's a matter of her dedication to doing things. She was always the type to set her mind to something and get it done, and I've always been the type to think "Eh, if I get it done, then it's done. ~Shrug.~"

So I'm sitting on my couch playing World of Warcraft wishing I was skinny and had a beer, while visualizing her: Thirty pounds lighter, fucking one of my former best friends, going to her $100,000 a year job while she gets her Doctorate in Theatre. It shook me up enough to realize: I'm 21 and I've done nothing. I need to get off my ass and get something accomplished!

So no, I'm not looking for revenge, really; I'm looking to surpass the image I have of her in my mind.

As for meds, I'm currently on Effexor XR 225mg, but I'm getting off of it: It costs too much and the withdraw symptomes are hellish and spooky. I'm going to be switching to prozac in the not to distant future, 30mg I think. Additionally I'm taking 400mg SAMe and 1,000mg Omega-3s. The SAMe seems to make a pretty huge difference. That said, I'd love to hear whatever herbs you might suggest, save for St. John's wort, which I've had and gotten fucked up by.

The friends thing: I'll admit, I'm lacking. However, I have a feeling that that's due in no small part to the Social Anxiety Disorder. I'm good with people, it's just a matter of getting our there and meeting them. I actually think I'm going to try to take a more roung about approach to things: Get on a good SSRI such as Prozac and go into therapy at the same time. Sit down with the therapist and explain that I need to learn proper coping and socializing mechanisms.

Years of listening to my mother Sponcering People for AA has taught me that having someone to talk to can be the most helpful thing, if for no other reason than because they have objectivity.

Thanks for the responses all!

-Harm-