listen jack, Ciao can mean hello also, so Ciao.
i am 58, how old are you 1st. Since I have been having sex since I was 13, youre right Size didnt matter or should I say no “I dont call Women-Whores”-Women have ever said anything. I have often felt that I have fallen out to many X and of course that throws off the rythm and orgasm which is ridiculously easy for men becomes impossible for women. Got that-Understand the Reason for my own personal deal. Not every woman I have been with have orgasmed and no matter what ”shrinks” say-I do see it as my responsibility and my failure. Now, dont interject any psychobable or any negatives in here. This is the way I believe and If you look into Tantra, Taoism or many Eastern Sex Ideas you will also see this.
Now. Let me tell you a story at 40 I was in perfect Shape, never had a keep it up failure, maybe a get it up failure if I was really not attaracted to the woman. I cant put a bag over their head, nor can I or will I imagine someone else in their place-neither work for me. At 40-everything went downhil 1st knee surgery, then toes surgery-they told me this will hold you over till your old, then the other foot had surgery. Being an Obseesive lunatic I ran onto the surgerized big toes, snapped it and I could say that was the beginning of my 10 year suicidal depression with the plan of being dead by 50 if not before. Prior to this I had always lived my life as if I would be dead by 40 and never thought of life in anyway after that. It was just 1 crazy thing after another wondering when would be the day I didnt get up. Sex was what I did evrything for, everyday was doing 1 daring thing after another all to hook up somehow.
So, we go back to where i broke the surgerized(yes, I know it is not a word)toe. The PT says to me “ Man, thats pretty bad gettin a MaJOR Limb fused”. I didnt know what he meant, all I know they fused it at 30 degrees movement. It took me almost a year to learn how to walk without a limp but my running, jogging, biking, climbing, rappelling, racqetball life was over. I wanted out of life, then my other foot had to hqve surgery, they repaired 1 toe but fucked up 4 others-Yes they fucked them up. But you cant sue the VA hospital. They said this hey we willfuse the toe we fucked up and it will be the 2nd toe and at the 3rd joint nothing like the other-Bull shit. It is way worse than the other and the other 3 toes they fucked uphave caused me to never be able to buy a fitting pair of shoes since. Then all of the sudden the other knee went out. The cartialage in my body had strted to vanish. The same story we will fix it now so you dont have to worry about until you are old. This is about 5 years of constant surgery and physical downtime and by now in and out of the psych hospital for suicide attempts… Obviously I wasnt able to have sex half the time I couldnt walk. In the hospital, I came close a few times but there was always someone there to strap me down when they thought I wasnt following the rules enough. If i had 4% body fat from birth to 40 that would have been pushing it. Not a soul would have said you wont be able to exercise at all by 50 and would end up 20lbs. over weight but your whole body would be fat with minimal muscle. Then my shoulder got shoulderitis(i will be making up words from here on out to describe shit. I said no more surgeries, then my elbow got elbowitis, i then got carpal tunnel syndrome, then thumbitis came along. Thumbitis eliminates the possibility of any jelquing at all and
Girth program (SRT 5x5x3) is also off the table. Shit continues downhill however I manage to have sex a few times, however twice I get a nice size joke from the pros I hook up with now. Wow. never had that before but I take it as a joke it just proves my idea of 6” being nothing is correct. But It dont matter. Until I get ED-dick death.
Flashback I started taking antidepressants back at age 30-earlier depression and these antids, stop erections and all kinds of side-effects however I dont let it stop me and the endless kegels I have been doing in Yoga work to keep it up. (they dont do shit now so dont throw that in at this point-even though I still do them all the time, or maybe I could nt even get it up at all.
Now we are at 52 still depressed but since I was a coward at 50 I feel to ashamed to think of suicide anymore like I am the idiot who cried wolf thousand time but chickened out at the last minute.
So, a few more sex times and I have the real ED a physical thing. The dr, gives me a pump some rings and some pills. They work but not fully.
At this point I notice I have Fupa-Fat at Pubic Area and see that my dick only looks like it is about 41/2“ long and that really bothers me. Somehow I am on Amazon looking at pumps and Isee these
extender things. I had never even heard of pumps in my whole life let alone extenders. I start buying shit and trying it, everything breaks and i get nothing but I am perplexed and I keep following threads and they go to stores and web sites and some how I end up at MOS-Holy Fuck-This is another Universe and I am thinking I always wanted to be a �naked people movies� start when I was in my 20s(when Vhs was around), where was this shit back then.
So, I buy everything Mos has and start working on this stuff but it is all sporadic and here is why-
Whammo, that knee that was supposed to be ok until I got old now needs to be completely replaced 3 years ago. The cut it in 1/2 put metal in ther and sew it back together many months befor I can do shit but I am trying to do this on and off)with blisters and cuts…). Then I get the call discs in your back are degenerating-and then in my neck now I am all fucked up, forgot what the inside of a gym looks like havent exercised in ten years and have what is called Chronic Pain, meaning my back is in constant pain. Then just this September, The same month that I decided I was going to do this everyday NMW what breaks in my body or mind. I have to have the other knee replaced. I still begin my program, my way and have not stopped.
Even though here is what happened, this knee surgery did not go well, 5 months later and i am still fucked up going up and down stairs. It is still in bad pain and is limited about 50% compared to the other which after replacement went back to about 85% of the original.
Now, let me tell you the worst part, they shifted me on the bed abruptly(though I repeated 1,000x my back is fucked I know how you guuys toss people from 1 bed to the the other after anestesia, dont do that with me). They must have done it because now I have a pinched nerve. The main nerve down the left side of the leg, which can never be fixed and now I will have to have a nerve block, who knows what kind of side effects come from that.
Now, i am fucked up to the max, take about 40 pilss a day 1/2 psych. and 1/2 for pain or actually 1/3 of that is to counter the side effects. I cant exercise, go to a gym or go out much except to PT, and the VA.
So, I havent thought about sex much for 15 years, in that time when I finally did-I actually got the “nice size”-1x I said it is average joking with her and she said “ bigger than a Chinese guys”-ridiculous but it broke the weirdness for the time. The my body gets really fucked up.
You know what helped pull me out of DEpression and back into the desire to live a bit longer. This PE shit-why? because it gave me a solid physical goal. I got psyched on accomplishing 1.9” which I still dont know if it is possible because I dont even trust my own kid, let alone other humans I have never even saw.
So, even with my back fucked and my still recuperating and being so angry I could burn the VA down I have not stopped doing this for 1 day since Sept 29th 2 days after surgery.
11/4” flaccid gains which is useless to me and 0 erect gains-0 to what looks like 4.5 is nothing. I may have surgery to remove the fat, not to look bigger but I think the fat gets in the way even. Now do I care if they joke about it to small, No-Why because I know it is to small for them. Not for all women but for the women I want to be with. I need it to be 1.9” more. Will I have sex if It dont-Yes but not until I have fully put in 110,000% and my 6 month testing period will only start when I can stay in the Size Dr, for 6 hrs(3 is the max I can do now).
Now, GH or HGH or whatever your nickname is-the way mu body has gone down hill. 73 seems like a long time to go and by then I could be crawling or something ridiculous. Do I want to have fun, yah if it will be fun. It wont be fun until I have proven whether I can or not. It probably wont be much fun if I dont get there but I will do it anyway, its the only thing I like that I can at least do.
Get it Now.
I dont understand why you guys always have to comment to me about the philosophy of this whole thing rather than answer the real questions I write(in betwee all the trash I write). I dont need to be told to have patience or told to have fun now while you can or that you have no idea what I am gtalking about. Of course you dont-no-one does, 1/2 th fucking time I dont.
Now I appreciate your philosophy tips and I ave put them into action. I never go past the point where I can feel a blister starting to form even though that leaves at 3 hours on the size dr and i have to wait to get to 6 and i dont know how fuck long this will even take.
I asked some specific questions about the lengthmaster torturing me and why?
About how the front is getting twice the size of the back and weighs so much even with the ed med I cant keep it up because of the weight. What is this bulbous thing. It is not an abnormal thing(like atumor or blister) but it dosesnt seem good ?
Why do I have to do erect stretches when in none of the experiments that worked did anyone do them?
Since I cant do them wigth my hands I have asked what you thought of my logic of using the mitty vac or any vac instead to push to the side(yes it is also with my hands but it is 100x easier, try it and you will see
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