Maybe a couple of you have noticed I haven't been around for a while. I kinda post-whored when active (I'm good at that) but then I disappeared. Well first there was life getting in my way.... not being able to PE in peace and privacy before work and then 6 weeks of hell at work where I was too tired (and sometimes no peace and privacy) to PE after work.
So then I started telling myself I was getting back into it, even if it was just Bathmate work. Started doing a round of manual stretching pre-shower for a few days to break myself back in. Then one night I leaned up against the sink to look at something in the mirror closely and I felt a lump in my groin shift.
It's a hernia. Damnit.
I suspended any and all PE work because I do not go lightly and the last thing I need is to aggravate it more.
But then I waited 4 weeks to call the doctor. Hoping it would go away on its own wasn't working fast enough. I have a surgical consult on Oct 16th and I'm going to push as hard as I can to get it fixed ASAP. I don't know how to slow down and go easy. Surgery is the only thing that will force me to apply the brakes, figuratively speaking.
The doctor wanted to put me on light duty at work but I declined because I know I'd immediately be sent home until I was cleared for full duty and I can't afford that. I can avoid lifting more than 20-25lbs though so she said that's okay, just be careful and don't do anything stupid (she knows nothing about me or else she'd realize that's impossible). I also told her the truth - I'm not in pain, just some discomfort from time to time, especially if I'm sneezing. I'm hoping it stays that way and doesn't get worse.
Other than that I've been fighting some personal inner demons the past 2 months. Hoping to get through them soon but it's been a long, LONG, road. Typical me I don't go looking for the help I know I can get, I'll just fight everything myself. It might be harder but I'll get through them. Someday I'll talk about it all openly, just not now.
Bigschwanz and DLD and everyone else - I miss you guys. It's hard to come here, its like going to the gym and just watching
Plus I haven't really had time to come here. I'll try to, especially to update what's going on. I'd love to PE but the Bathmate is going to be sitting awfully close to whatever part of my guts is sticking through my abdominal wall and I pull like hell on that thing. I simply don't feel it's safe to try. Once I'm healed, however, GAME ON!
Oh yeah, I haven't lost any size as far as I can tell. I know if I put my palms together it's about 7" and doing a BPEL with them the other week I was about half an inch away from 2 full palms. I've retained a full inch since starting PE back in February, maybe a little more if I checked with a ruler. Can't be upset about that, right?
So my spirits are okay while I type all this. I guess I needed to get a lot out.
[Ahhnold Terminator Voice] I'll be back. [/Ahhnold Terminator Voice]
So then I started telling myself I was getting back into it, even if it was just Bathmate work. Started doing a round of manual stretching pre-shower for a few days to break myself back in. Then one night I leaned up against the sink to look at something in the mirror closely and I felt a lump in my groin shift.
It's a hernia. Damnit.
I suspended any and all PE work because I do not go lightly and the last thing I need is to aggravate it more.
But then I waited 4 weeks to call the doctor. Hoping it would go away on its own wasn't working fast enough. I have a surgical consult on Oct 16th and I'm going to push as hard as I can to get it fixed ASAP. I don't know how to slow down and go easy. Surgery is the only thing that will force me to apply the brakes, figuratively speaking.
The doctor wanted to put me on light duty at work but I declined because I know I'd immediately be sent home until I was cleared for full duty and I can't afford that. I can avoid lifting more than 20-25lbs though so she said that's okay, just be careful and don't do anything stupid (she knows nothing about me or else she'd realize that's impossible). I also told her the truth - I'm not in pain, just some discomfort from time to time, especially if I'm sneezing. I'm hoping it stays that way and doesn't get worse.
Other than that I've been fighting some personal inner demons the past 2 months. Hoping to get through them soon but it's been a long, LONG, road. Typical me I don't go looking for the help I know I can get, I'll just fight everything myself. It might be harder but I'll get through them. Someday I'll talk about it all openly, just not now.
Bigschwanz and DLD and everyone else - I miss you guys. It's hard to come here, its like going to the gym and just watching
Plus I haven't really had time to come here. I'll try to, especially to update what's going on. I'd love to PE but the Bathmate is going to be sitting awfully close to whatever part of my guts is sticking through my abdominal wall and I pull like hell on that thing. I simply don't feel it's safe to try. Once I'm healed, however, GAME ON! Oh yeah, I haven't lost any size as far as I can tell. I know if I put my palms together it's about 7" and doing a BPEL with them the other week I was about half an inch away from 2 full palms. I've retained a full inch since starting PE back in February, maybe a little more if I checked with a ruler. Can't be upset about that, right?
So my spirits are okay while I type all this. I guess I needed to get a lot out.
[Ahhnold Terminator Voice] I'll be back. [/Ahhnold Terminator Voice]
