What PE revealed to me

HI I`ve been Penis Enlargementing for 2.5 months or so because I had a tiny penis. I felt very insecure about myself and I was acting like a wimp. Sometimes girls told me about my size to make fun of me and my closest friends laughed about it sometimes.
I was 5.5 which is very small. Come to think about it, I don`t think girls could see it through the pants when they checked me out.
I didn`t have such a happy childhood because of that and because I was underdeveloped. I`m not saying I was fucking ugly, I guess I have a pretty face, but I was SOOO skinny! A lot of kids picked on me and made me look like a loser.
Now I`m 7.3 NBPenis Enlargement. I have almost 2 inches of self-esteem and I feel so much different. I stopped hanging uot with my "closest" friends just because they couldn`t respect me how I want to be respected now. Once I reach my goal, I guess I`ll have the biggest cock that the girls I know have ever seen[I mean 9.5].
Maybe some of them will like me then, but I guess I couldn`t get with them because of all the time everyone around me made me feel unsexy.
I`m so fucking angry about that! What do they have that makes them so different? So because you have a great body you get to be respected by everyone? What about brains? Personality?
Doesn`t that matter? Even then I felt 10 times smarter and better than most of the peolpe around me, especially the pretty ones.
Now what do I Penis Enlargement for?
To be just like them... Better actually. Probably I will make fun of people that have the problem that I used to have. I will only become more superficial.
I`m having trouble in finding out how will I be happy and I`m sick of the fact that a piece of meat[ my penis] dictates my place in the society. It`s just not fair.
Think about it. Thanks.

good story man, glad its working well.

Spidy,

That's a lot of deep thinking there. I don't know how old you are, but I am guessing pretty young. As you get older, people just don't treat each other like this any more. Part of growing up, I think. What seems like a big thing when you are young just does not seem all that important later.

If you are being made fun of, realize that the reason it continues is because you are making it enjoyable for your attackers. People make fun of people it is fun to make fun of. Take the fun out of it for them, and they stop. I would say your reactions to their taunts are what gives them cause to continue, not the actual size of your dick.

Look at the way you react, and change it. Do you fight back? Do you slink away? Do you get a specific look on your face? A usual witty saying? Do you get all condescending or just angry? Stop it, and learn to make even bigger jokes about it. Self depreciating humor will always dull an attack. When a guy says your dick is small, say something like, "Mrs. Squeeky, my pet hamster, says I am big enough for her." Or, "It wouldn't be a problem if there were more midget women around here." Or, "Yeah, but I save a lot on condoms - I get five out of every latex glove." Or, "Yeah, I guess I was born to be a hamster farmer." In fact, I bet the guys here could come up with a bunch of really funny comebacks if you asked them.

If you make fun of yourself when picked on, all the enjoyment will go out of it for the attacker. Eventually they will move on to other prey. And as far as your dick being really small - well it's not. And women don't care about that nearly as much as you might think. What a woman wants is romance and fantasy. Nobody once asked how big Don Juan's dick was, yet women everywhere wanted him right? All about romance and fantasy. Learn that, and the size of your dick will never come up - I swear.

I go to swing clubs and parties all the time. I have seen guys with dicks too small to wear a condom, and they are getting sex and having fun too. How? They are fun to be with, make women feel special, and focus on their own strengths instead of their weaknesses. I have never seen women crowd around a man because of the size of his huge dick. I do see them crowd around a guy who is funny, interesting, dances and pays attention to them. The only reason your dick size dictates where you are in society is because you let it.

In Penis Enlargement we have a tendency to think our failures with women or even life in general come from our small penis size. Somehow we got the idea, like you seem to, that we are judged in life by our dick size. We think that if we just make the penis big enough, all our earthly troubles will disappear. Unfortunately, we are focusing on a symptom, not the actual disease. The disease is confidence - we have none. How do we get it? A big dick is our thought, but many with big dicks still have the problem. What can we do then?

I believe we have to get out and have a life. A real and exciting life. Push ourselves to the limit. Do exciting things. Bungee jump, skydive, white water kayak, surf (my favorite), race cars, ride motorcycles, hang glide, climb mountains, hike long distances (say across Europe), get a private pilot's license, crew on sailboats during races, swim the canal. Make it your business to try anything that looks even remotely exciting. I don't care how afraid you are. Suck it up and do it. Start small if you must, but do it. By attempting, and completing such things, we build our sense of self worth. We also become damn interesting to those around us, because we are living life in a way they admire but are afraid to do themselves.

I live this way Spidy, and I can tell you that nobody makes fun of me anymore. They are too interested in hearing about one of my exciting adventures. Women don't care about my dick - they want to be with me because I am exciting. Men don't make fun of me, they buy me beer so I will tell them what it is like to hang glide off a mountain. So I suggest you get out there and start doing things. You will find the more things you do, the less the dick will matter.

I know what you mean, very good story.

What is is with the way society thinks in this world.

You tell them your going to start working out, and they say "Oh you dont want to do that, do you really want to get that big" I am like WTF are you talking about? I just want to workout because I want to builf a litle muscle and get in shape, and look and feel better. It is the same way with Penis Enlargement.

People cannot embrace change all they can do is shun it. If something changes around them that they don't agree with they get jealous

"Jealousy digs the mud that envy throws at success"

Remember that. Good luck, God Bless you.

Supra.

Probably I will make fun of people that have the problem that I used to have.

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...Why in the hell would you do that? If you know what these people are going through and can identify with the ridicule and sense of hopelessness that they feel, why would you add on to that already immense burden? I personally think that is one of the most shallow, self-centered things anyone could ever do.

You shouldn't be doing Penis Enlargement to "fit in" with other people. You should be doing this to feel better about yourself, end of story. If you're doing this just so that you can run around with the assholes who have made you feel worthless your whole life, then I really pitty you.

When you reach your goals, if you happen to meet someone who's in the same boat that you used to be in, don't make them feel any worse then they already do. Enlighten them. Tell them about the wonders that Penis Enlargement'ing can do for them... If you don't want to share the secrets of Penis Enlargement with them, at the very least don't make fun of them.

If you're doing this just so that you can run around with the assholes who have made you feel worthless your whole life, then I really pitty you.

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No, man I was talking about the fact that I couldn`t find myself. I mean that is what happens when societ takes you over, hope you understand.
When I wrote that post I had trouble finding my goals and myself. Now I`m better after writing that post.

And now I`m not made fun of. Used to happen when I was smaller, but is still a part of me, still in my head.
Now I`m a teenager.[an older one].I`m at the age most of you guys thought of starting Penis Enlargement.
Thanks for reading my thoughts and I wouldn`t do anything mean to people that are having the problem I used to have. Trust me

"Jealousy digs the mud that envy throws at success"

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Cool quote, Supra!
And PirateSteve, I will try to life my life and give up what happened. I`m just having a rough time there last few weeks and I feel like shit. I am just hoping I`ll be happier once my Penis Enlargement quest is over.

Always remember this as well, whatever comes around goes around.

i try and live by that saying.

as you can see, with steve, supra, and papercut and others, you're with a great support site, not just with penis size, but other problems. I've got to agree that you should go out and do exciting things, it makes you more of an exciting person. imagine being able to telll a girl all the places you've been, all the stuff you've tried, they'll see you as a cool and exciting person, and I doubt that they would not like you if you've got some bad stuff about you. It's great that you threw those "friends" that made fun of you out of your life, make new friends, try new things. See whatI'm saying?

raise: PirateSteve

Excellent lesson in body language and psychology there!! You're the man!

-ItsElectric

quote: Probably I will make fun of people that have the problem that I used to have. ...Why in the hell would you do that? If you know what these people are going through and can identify with the ridicule and sense of hopelessness that they feel, why would you add on to that already immense burden? I personally think that is one of the most shallow, self-centered things anyone could ever do. You shouldn't be doing Penis Enlargement to "fit in" with other people. You should be doing this to feel better about yourself, end of story. If you're doing this just so that you can run around with the assholes who have made you feel worthless your whole life, then I really pitty you. When you reach your goals, if you happen to meet someone who's in the same boat that you used to be in, don't make them feel any worse then they already do. Enlighten them. Tell them about the wonders that Penis Enlargement'ing can do for them... If you don't want to share the secrets of Penis Enlargement with them, at the very least don't make fun of them.

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You know, oopapercutoo, at first I thought that I really said that and that I didn`t make sense and replied to you in this thread thinking that, but I didn`t say that and maybe nextime you should read the whole paragraph and don`t judge me over over sentence which means something separately, because I can only write in a whole.

Now what do I Penis Enlargement for? To be just like them... Better actually. Probably I will make fun of people that have the problem that I used to have. I will only become more superficial. I`m having trouble in finding out how will I be happy and I`m sick of the fact that a piece of meat[ my penis] dictates my place in the society. It`s just not fair.

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My point was that by Penis Enlargementing I would become a more superficial person, like the ones that used to diss me because I cannot see the sunshine cuz of the dark clouds in my mind.
No need for you to pitty me though. I can do without it. heh

A very important part of Penis Enlargement is overlooked and this is the mental piece. As we grow physically we expect that this is going to solve many of our insecurities. For many, as time goes on and they continue to grow physically a new frustration begins to surface. This frustration is brought on because we expect to "feel" bigger just because we are and this is not the case. I can personally relate to this as I thought many of my problems would be solved once I got to a certain size. I was disappointed to find that my problems were still there despite my incredible gains.

I was extremely skinny for most of my life. I had a very specific body image in my head of what I looked like. Without even looking in the mirror I could visualize exactly what I looked like. I saw frail shoulders, ribs showing, a concave chest, bony knees, lack of muscle tone...I KNEW MY BODY! When I was about 24 years old I quit smoking and rapidly put on 80 pounds. I went from 105lbs. to 185lbs. in less than 3 months. I went from being extremely skinny to being overweight. I joined a gym to try to deal with this weight gain. I loved weight training so much that when the gym went up for sale I quickly bought it. I was now 215lbs. solid muscle. I had huge shoulders, massive arms, a wide back, I was huge and in shape. Despite all this hard work and the countless hours of training, supplements and diet I endured I STILL HAD THE VISION OF THAT SKINNY BOY IN MY HEAD. I still wore baggy, layers clothes to try to make myself look bigger. I still was embarrassed to take my shirt off in front of anyone. I was 100% physically different, everyone told me I was different, but in my mind I was the same.

I always thought I had a good size penis pre-pe. I was 6.5" in length and I never got complaints. I knew there were guys out there that were MUCH BIGGER than me but for the most part I was relatively secure about my penis size. I got into Penis Enlargement because I was having erection problems and I read that jelqing and PC work could change this. Anyway soon after I started doing Penis Enlargement I made gains (of course to my surprise because I though actually enlarging the penis was impossible) I got to 8" very quickly and during this "honeymoon" period of Penis Enlargement I felt awesome. Like most guys, I became very obsessed with Penis Enlargement. I remember thinking that a big penis would change all my problems...I though it was the fountain of youth. I used to say to myself once I get to 8.5" I will be happy, that number would come and go but I was still not happy. The goal would constantly change and with each gain, to my dismay, I was more frustrated and less happy. I knew there was a problem and I was determined to figure it out. Although very funny this was a day in my life then: http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=10&highlight=Obsessive+Com

I set out to understand the psyche of my penis and how it related to other parts of my life. I quickly found out that penis size or fallacies in some capacity dictated much of my daily life...fuck that, my dreams too.:D This is when I set out to do all the mental and visual studies I did. They are all present on this forum and in the paysite under DLD Place. I will hunt the links down so those interested can read them. I wanted to know why I had a bigger penis than most of the guys out there but I still saw myself as slightly above average. I wanted to know what that nagging feeling was every time I saw another mans penis. Why did I see everyone as being bigger than me? This is when I set out and did this study: http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=1291. Through the months of looking at thousands of nude men in every capasity I started to find some answers. I started to understand the psyche of the male and how the penis played a role in much of my life. I went on to do a study into the relationship of the obsessions I was feeling in comparison to Bulimia and Anorexia Nervosa. I was baffled by the similarities and I decided to call this particular disorder as P.D.D. (penis dismorphic disease). I was getting somewhere now...I had identified the problem and I had 100's of guys coming to me with similar problems. In the study where I identified P.D.D., I also created a simple test that would help diagnose this disorder and give some basic therapies to practice: http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=5&highlight=Obsessive+Com.

I went on to spend allot more time on the positive side of the mental process. In the following threads you will find much of the information that has helped change my life. http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=4&highlight=visualization and http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=649&highlight=visualization and http://www.mattersofsize.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=1188&highlight=visualization.

I came to understand that my mind needed to grow with my penis. I found that no matter how big I became physically It would not change my "SELF IMAGE". A change in this would have to come from a deeper place. Although my obsessiveness is still a daily battle I have grown so much over the past 3 years. Please take the time to read these threads if you can relate to these feelings...It will change your life.

DLD

VERY WELL PUT DLD

DLD, I was hoping you would find this post! Spidy, nobody in the world knows more about this, or has more experience beating the incorrect self-image than DLD.

And DLD, that was such a beautiful post! This is why I am here DLD - because you care, and you know what you are talking about. Spidy, listen to the voice of experience and you will fly higher than a condor. And DLD, if I was gay - and you were gay - I would be on your doorstep tomorrow...

exactly.
DLD is the man on this.
I also would like to say please guys give the guy some credit...hes not English speaking....hes done fucking great talking here in another lang'' - seems that some here miss-read what he says...dont be ignorant and cut him some slack as hes trying.

Dude, I feel your torment.
I was Bullied at school....battered alot of the time.
But guess what????? when I was a bad-ass :s knocking about with scumbags the only good thing that came out of it was I beat the living shit out of 3 of the guys that bullyed me.
I had one guy put in a wheelchair, the fucka wont torment no-one again....man the pleasure as I smashed his knee caps with that bat.
I probably joined my druggy mates to get accepted and liked but also to strike fear into other bad ass boys.

I suggest you learn, take up Judo, karate or summut and oneday - take your time - find these guys and fuck them up .. big time.
Also I dont think your boring....fuck what the mojority think...what the majority of women out their think, most are only afrer a shag and not arsed what the fuck you are....you could be Jack the ripper here in the UK but the sluts here would still ride the lightning...HELL YEAH :blahblah:

TAKE YA TIME.
Build ya confidence up....slowly.
Think positive, visualize things - good things you want.
goto the gym, build the body, learn a fighting skill.
Get into some brothal or get some escorts to build ya new confidence with women.
Than of ya want to...after the confidence is their....nail the bastards who tormented you.
Do you have connections??? if so than its easy, of not than wait wait wait.
''One day my freind the devil will unveil itself....on that day he who is unveiled to will pay''

^^^ In other words you may become the devil [evil] and take it too far [kill] I aint saying this....I am saying break the kneecaps....make um never walk gods land again.
If I lived near you I would break the knees....but I dont, so see ya :blahblah:

Yeah, I guess all my problems are minor ones and I should be able to solve them.
Thanks guys for your thoughts on this, I`m expecting more, but what I wanted to to discuss here was the fact that the size of my penis relates to every other element in my life and that by Penis Enlargementing and finally get the huge penis that I want is it possible to become only more superficial?

DLD, I wish I were like you... I mean you are so calm and very confident of yourself...
You were like that before Penis Enlargementing?

DLD, I wish I were like you... I mean you are so calm

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wait till you hear him in a bad mood he has given me the riot act once, can be a mean Mutha when he wants
I think he does Yoga and aint saying...:blahblah: also he might have a stress ball....he would need it with all us here.