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It just struck me today how strong my mental perception of my body is. This afternoon, while fooling around with my wife, I observed my wife as she was playing with my penis. She was laying with her head on my stomach, her long hair spread out on my chest, jacking me off. I was very relaxed and was enjoying the attention. I looked down to watch and saw that my penis was over twice as long as her hand and seemed very, very thick. It was very exciting. It looked huge, and I could see that my attempts to lose weight was paying off, too, because my stomach was flat. I felt very virile and sexy, and I knew that she was staring at my penis as she played with it. She is somewhat fascinated by my new improved weiner and likes to look at it now.
Anyway, as I observed, that little voice pipes up in the back of my head and goes, "You know it's not really that big, don't you? You're just imagining it. Yeah, you've lost weight, but you're still fat. Yeah, it's bigger, but it's not THAT big!" That golden moment was blown, and suddenly my penis seemed to shrink down to its original pre-Penis Enlargement size, and suddenly, I felt fat again...like, pig fat and all bloated.
What strikes me is that my visual perception actually altered, like I was looking at myself in one of those funhouse mirrors, one that made my penis tiny and my body hugely obese. What I wonder is if our mental perception of ourself, good and bad, can actually physiologically cause the focus of our eyeballs to change to make the actual physical image (7.5"X6" cock and 265 lb body) conform to the mental perception of our body (5"X4" cock and 350 lb body). It seems quite possible, and may be a big part of why some of us, even some of the huge guys, still see themselves as small. It's not just a matter of mental perception, but the eyes are actually changing focus to make us see ourselves that way?
I wonder if any studies have been done on this, say with bulimic or anorexic women, who actually see themselves as fatter, as our problems seems to be about the same, but in reverse, with our penises.
Anyway, as I observed, that little voice pipes up in the back of my head and goes, "You know it's not really that big, don't you? You're just imagining it. Yeah, you've lost weight, but you're still fat. Yeah, it's bigger, but it's not THAT big!" That golden moment was blown, and suddenly my penis seemed to shrink down to its original pre-Penis Enlargement size, and suddenly, I felt fat again...like, pig fat and all bloated.
What strikes me is that my visual perception actually altered, like I was looking at myself in one of those funhouse mirrors, one that made my penis tiny and my body hugely obese. What I wonder is if our mental perception of ourself, good and bad, can actually physiologically cause the focus of our eyeballs to change to make the actual physical image (7.5"X6" cock and 265 lb body) conform to the mental perception of our body (5"X4" cock and 350 lb body). It seems quite possible, and may be a big part of why some of us, even some of the huge guys, still see themselves as small. It's not just a matter of mental perception, but the eyes are actually changing focus to make us see ourselves that way?
I wonder if any studies have been done on this, say with bulimic or anorexic women, who actually see themselves as fatter, as our problems seems to be about the same, but in reverse, with our penises.
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