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Okay...me and this married woman have been really close friends for about 3 months now...problem is, as happens sometimes in this situation, we have developed feelings for each other. The bad part is, we have so much chemistry, it's amazing. There has never been an awkard pause in our conversations, we are always having fun around one another, and we share everything. She's told me before that a) She thinks we are soul mates...but still just friends. b)I'm the only person she doesn't feel lonely around (that includes her husband) c)If she hadn't been married when we first met, she would have been all over me d)Her and her husband are drifting apart and e)She tells me everything, including things she doesn't tell her husband and f)I know her better than anyone, including her husband.
Now...obviously, I am in a difficult situation. Difficult for several reasons. I could easily, very easily, if I wasn't careful, fall in love with this girl. She is beautiful, smart, sweet, funny, everything. I have often looked at her and thought, "She is perfect." I can read her emotions just by looking in her eyes. Around her, I feel...happy. I have a complex, a disorder, a thing in my head taht always makes me feel alone and unworthy...when I'm with her, she makes me feel important, liked, loved. She hugs me all the time, plays around with me...it's kind of hard to explain. All I know is, I desperately want to be with her sometimes. Sometimes I don't feel it; sometimes I am content just to be her friend, but...it's hard to ignore the other times.
I am a Christian. Devout and saved. So is she. She doesn't not believe in divorce unless abuse is involved. She has told me before that her husband and her are drifting apart, but I don't think they would ever get a divorce. If they did, I hate to say it, but I would make a move...not soon, obviously, but I would. It kills me to hang out with her ANd him, because I feel guilty the whole time and I feel awkward. He has already said he has no problem with me, and he is a nice guy...but I don't think he is right for her. He just...doesn't look at her right, doesn't love her enough. But then again, I could be crazy.
She still loves him, she's told me as much...but...I just don't know what the Hell to do. One minute she acts like she wants to divorce him and be with me, but the next she acts like I'm just her friend, nothing more...which I am fine with. Usually. She tells me that we're soul mates, and that her husband doesn't understand her the way I do, and...Damnit, Id on't know what to do! I would love to be with her, but if I don't have a chance in Hell of it, I want to at least try to move on a little! I already have enough women troubles (4 girlfriends, 6 heartbreaks...looong story, for another time.) I just don't know what to do. I cry about it sometimes, and that helps a little, but...I'm so lonely, and she eases it so easily...I just wish I knew why...and knew how to get what I need to get out of this.
There's more to the story, obviously, but I'll let it go at this until I get some replies or something so I can tell if anyone even wants to hear me continue ranting.
Now...obviously, I am in a difficult situation. Difficult for several reasons. I could easily, very easily, if I wasn't careful, fall in love with this girl. She is beautiful, smart, sweet, funny, everything. I have often looked at her and thought, "She is perfect." I can read her emotions just by looking in her eyes. Around her, I feel...happy. I have a complex, a disorder, a thing in my head taht always makes me feel alone and unworthy...when I'm with her, she makes me feel important, liked, loved. She hugs me all the time, plays around with me...it's kind of hard to explain. All I know is, I desperately want to be with her sometimes. Sometimes I don't feel it; sometimes I am content just to be her friend, but...it's hard to ignore the other times.
I am a Christian. Devout and saved. So is she. She doesn't not believe in divorce unless abuse is involved. She has told me before that her husband and her are drifting apart, but I don't think they would ever get a divorce. If they did, I hate to say it, but I would make a move...not soon, obviously, but I would. It kills me to hang out with her ANd him, because I feel guilty the whole time and I feel awkward. He has already said he has no problem with me, and he is a nice guy...but I don't think he is right for her. He just...doesn't look at her right, doesn't love her enough. But then again, I could be crazy.
She still loves him, she's told me as much...but...I just don't know what the Hell to do. One minute she acts like she wants to divorce him and be with me, but the next she acts like I'm just her friend, nothing more...which I am fine with. Usually. She tells me that we're soul mates, and that her husband doesn't understand her the way I do, and...Damnit, Id on't know what to do! I would love to be with her, but if I don't have a chance in Hell of it, I want to at least try to move on a little! I already have enough women troubles (4 girlfriends, 6 heartbreaks...looong story, for another time.) I just don't know what to do. I cry about it sometimes, and that helps a little, but...I'm so lonely, and she eases it so easily...I just wish I knew why...and knew how to get what I need to get out of this.
There's more to the story, obviously, but I'll let it go at this until I get some replies or something so I can tell if anyone even wants to hear me continue ranting.