I think I may be depressed but I'm not sure

doublelongdaddy said:

I went to church yesterday and when I was saying my prayers I tried to remember everybody in my life that needs help and pray for them. I try to go through all my members hear and think about who needs what and pray for them...but I always get back to my computer and then remember someone I forgot and then BOOM I feel terrible again.

I guess what works best for me is to just talk about it.

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damn man,thats awesome.i was already convinced you were a bangup guy,but that really hit home.not many people can say they are caring enough to do things like that.that part of your personality alone should lift you up somewhat as ive met only one other person in my life that is that in tune with others needs/security.

you should really be proud of yourself bro.youve done what few,or should i say relatively none have.successful in your dreams and desires,after all,you are like the king of this n.p.e.(which ill assume from reading and hanging around here some that is one of your life pursuits.)
you also have a wife and a son which makes you successful beyond anything else you could do in life in my eyes.im sure they are very happy with the time you spend with them and wouldnt trade it for anything.

i do understand what youre goin through pertaining to ocd.i have a very very close friend that has it extremely bad.bad enough to where if she thought she had upset me or done me wrong,she would go into fits of shaking,crying,mumbling incoherent things and would have to be taken to the emergency room.she has gotten so much better as of this year and late last yr.but for 4 yrs i kept tryin to get through to her that no matter what she "thinks" she has done to me,or hasnt done for me that im there for her,no matter what.thats what true friends are for,giving you a lift when youre down and not clowning you and saying youre being a pussy and whatnot.so in light of that ill just say thats what were all here for man,to lift you up.you did the right thing by posting and talking about these things.everyone feels better when they have support in high numbers,which is what you have here.we are all your friends and wont hesitate to give you a swift kick in the rear if you think about touchin the brew or other poisons :D

DLD, I haven't been here for long but you have become such a great inspirational role model for me. If it wasn't for you I to this day wouldn't have believe that Penis Enlargement will work for me, especially not since I didn't gain anything at all the previous time I did Penis Enlargement.
You have responded to every single one of my mails, not only answering my questions but also finding ways to motivate me. I don't think that this is the case with any of the other pay site out there, no matter the cause.

You need to rasie your endorphan levels. IE Exercise

poonologist said:

damn man,thats awesome.i was already convinced you were a bangup guy,but that really hit home.not many people can say they are caring enough to do things like that.that part of your personality alone should lift you up somewhat as ive met only one other person in my life that is that in tune with others needs/security.

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Thanks poon! It is nice to look back on this thread now that I am in a better place and see all the support here.

swedeguy said:

DLD, I haven't been here for long but you have become such a great inspirational role model for me. If it wasn't for you I to this day wouldn't have believe that Penis Enlargement will work for me, especially not since I didn't gain anything at all the previous time I did Penis Enlargement.
You have responded to every single one of my mails, not only answering my questions but also finding ways to motivate me. I don't think that this is the case with any of the other pay site out there, no matter the cause.

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Swede, It gives me pleasure to help. Even since I got into Penis Enlargement I have always wanted to be in the position I am today. Thanks for the compliments!

Supra said:

You need to rasie your endorphan levels. IE Exercise

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True! I have been trying to take a walk every night. I know it is small but it is a first step.

Why are you so depressed? Something must be bothering you.. Sometimes even the smallest things can make me just breakdown..

DLD, I feel you completely man! I'm glad that you talk about what you are feeling, that way it gives your mind to slow down and process what you are feeling and doing through your words. Or, in this case, typing. I had a pretty bad case of depression, and it was horrible. I almost failed two years of high school because of my lack of motivation and will to give a shit about my life, or anything for that matter. I felt so bad and down, it was like I had just lost a family member the sadness and anxiety that I was going through. something that I found helped me a bit was journaling. I was able to slow down for at least 10 minutes and just write my thoughts and experiences down, and just control my mind for a short period of time. I can't say I know where you are coming from with the OCD, but I wish you the best in all areas of your life. You are an INCREDIBLE person, and it puts a smile onto my face when I see you posting and helping other people. You're a great and caring man, and, though you don't believe it, Jen and your son see that and appreciate it, as do all of us Penis Enlargement'ers on this site! Take care man!

-Bigman

Getting high is not the answer. I had a huge drug problem since I was 14. I smoked marijuana for the first time, and loved the ritual behind it. The feeling of taking a hit, smokign with new stoners just for the sake of getting that fix. Weed isn't addictive they say? Maybe not physically but mentally it can be very addictive. There were time I smoked up to 10 times a day, if not more. Just to keep me high, the feeling of smoke drawing into my lungs gave me a false sense of security and before I knew it....I was lost in the fog. Eventually happiness and other positive side effects diminish leaving traces of negative feelings. I have been clean for less than 2 weeks, and hope to stay that way. Marijuana makes me lose focus on the important things in life. All the things that are worth while.

All that being said I eventually got into other drugs, though weed was my most used. I used cocaine a few times, ate mushrooms on several occasions and even tryed LSD a number of times. Maybe I had some good times, but for the most part drugs do nothing but bring you down and keep you there. Take it from me, a former drug abuser. Temporary happiness for a high price that harms your body and mind. it is not worth it and will make you lose focus very quick. I am still good friends with alot of drug users, and I see how it does nothing beneficial to them. All it does is slow down their mind, and help them lose sight of their goals.

Please, do not use drugs to escape problems as it only leads to ones that are much worse.

nice post ace, and I agree. My best friend a few years back started with drugs and shit and his life went downhill. A while back I felt a lil bit of depression comin on but I found somethin I liked to do and kept at it. I also started working out and excersizing, and that helps alot with making you feel alot better.

My outlet for depression is my guitar. Marijuana did absolutley nothing to make me better at playing it. However I always thought it did since mariajuana can make you creative. Creative in an often times idiotic way though. Now when I feel down which is almost every day, I play something that makes me feel better. Music is kind of like my guide in life.

I too had a drug problem, and I smoked weed and some other stuff to help deal with my depression. I got into Narcotics Anonymous, and now have just under 5 months clean. The program works, let me tell you!

Congratulations bigman808. The battle can be tough.

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Try some mental hypnosis, yoga , spirtualisation methods and see how that goes.

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Just what I was gonna suggest myself. Try some meditation bro, and make sure you set aside more than enough time to do it every day, no matter what.
All the best people in the world suffer and feel they're not doing enough. Face it DLD, you're so insparational to us all you're practically a movie star.

Hang in there, buddy.

Thanks, AcesHigh! I really appreciate that! DLD, you might want to check that out if you want, its definitely worth your time...

Hang in there brother...if things are as bad as they can be, you can be sure there will be a brighter tomorrow. You have helped me out as well as motivated me in starting my Penis Enlargement....truly a good man as anyone can see.

Keep your head up bud.

-NLS

Jesus

This is one of the most real threads I've ever read on the Internet. And you'd think a forum full of guys trying to have the biggest dicks on the block would be well... a board full of pompous dicks.

What you guys are saying is completely true. Hell, DLD just answered the first PM I ever sent him in less than 5 minutes.

It seems he is doing better now.

I admire any man who creates, who stakes his own claim. That is exactly what DLD has done. I couldn't believe when I read that a man with a footlong is agoraphobic and has feelings of inadequacy. We all truly do have our own demons, no?

So glad you are feeling better.

ive never had problems with drugs and alcohol but dld the best advice i can give you is remember that you have alot of friends on here who will always support you and you got a girl that is a million times hotter than the average girl walking this earth and you can always look in your pants and that might cheer you up lol but seriously you seem like a great guy and i hope everything works out for ya

DLD cheer up man! Go do something that makes you happy. You're an awesome guy. You have nothing to feel guilty about.

I have an anxiety problem myself and I can attest sunlight does help and exercise will help also. The biggest help of all to me is my girlfriend though. Just being around her makes me feel great. The only problem is we are in a long distance relationship and see each other about one time a month when we are both going to college. I talk to her daily and we have netcams so that helps me a lot. Anyways what I'm saying is you gotta find something that will take your mind off what you are worrying about.

Talk to Jen and your son. 10 years old is mature enough to talk about true feelings with.

but I always get back to my computer and then remember someone I forgot and then BOOM I feel terrible again.

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DLD you can pray anywhere anytime. Don't limit your spiritual life to Sunday mornings, or rather church. Anytime you start a long journey pray for travelling mercies. Anytime you just feel a need, pray through it.

You are an awesome guy, and the fact you worry so much, beyond the OCD/medical realm, shows your a good enough guy. You need not worry about these things on the level you do.

Thanks guys for the support. This past week has been a nightmare week. My son got a baseball thrown at his eye and needed to go on bed rest for an entire week. I feel so bad for him because this is his last week of summer. My car broke down and I have not had transportation for a week now. Things have been generally crappy but I know you guys are always pullin' for me so it makes things easier.

Thanks Again

Hell yeah D. Everyone here is here for ya. We're a community. My prayers go out for your son...it's definitely no picninc getting hit with a baseball. I played thirteen years and had a pitch hit my helmet. Thank God he's okay.