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It was a complete and utter shock to me...I mean biggest shock of my life, like...just seeing a dead body shock, voice going up really high, tears coming out of my eyes, hand over mouth, shaky, that kinda thing.
I go to Literotica all the time. (Anybody else go?) I really liked to read the lesbian stories on there. But, well...there was a point at which I was beginning to feel the whole penis insecurity thing. Measured for the first time and what not. And I'm thinking "There've got to be a lot of romantic stories about 'yeah the guy has a small penis but the couple is so in love, there's nothing to it'"
Instead I found the millions of horrid, nasty stories about all those women that cheat on their husbands in front of them, tease them about their penis, invite their little friends over and they do it too, SICK, SICK STUFF.
Then the women tell all their friends, so it's like they have some kind of underground list of who to go to. "Let's go to this guy, make fun of his penis, doesn't matter how much it hurts him, and then let's go to this guy because he has a huge penis and have fun." For this reason, men are just being used. And the men with huge penises don't give a shit obviously...they've got huge penises, and raging hardons for girls that want to have sex with him.
Exhibitionism too. Not spying on your neighbor undressing; watching another man have sex with your lover, or even sharing them. Especially since penises play a significant role in feeling like you're overpowering someone, or the painful feeling of being overpowered.
But...I just don't get those guys that let the pain overtake them to the point of liking it. It's like...they get so teased about their penis that they think they'll never enjoy any kind of sex life, so they devote their lives to being deprived, hurt, and humiliated because they think it's all they'll become. So then their brains twist into thinking "this feels nice!" when, anybody with their manhood intact will see he is fucked up.
This is, of course, why I mean it doubly so when I say I'm glad I discovered MoS. Because of this, I'll be safe from that pain. I know there are thousands of men that were saved by this site. What hurts me is that it still exists for other men. After all, this place is still sort of a secret, and it still exists in society at large that small penises are to be laughed at and reflect who you are as a man for some reason, large penises are what you need to enjoy a good sex life, because even if you "know how to move" that doesn't change the fact that a bigger penis would help that to be even better, and average penises are just commonplace and sighed upon by women. And they always talk about that to us like it's OUR fault. I don't get that whole disappointment thing women try to play on us when they clearly know it's what we're born with and can't change.
Penises are a part of nature too. The longest penis gets the sperm to the eggs faster; the thickest penis helps the woman orgasm which helps in sperm transferral. (I've done research. I'm way too obsessive. Call it reaction to the shock.) But penises are also completely irrelevant to the body. So it's like nature chooses who wins from day one; there's no point to any other part of life anymore. It's all about what penis you have. But, oh, that would be too sad for society to come out and tell the truth about. So let's keep it an issue under wraps until it's needed, then we can hurt unfortunate guys and take advantage of willing fortunate guys.
People are scum to each other. I thought romanticism would be my escape. But I can't even think of that. This horrible fear, or knowing it happens to other men, is what kept me from being able to write erotic fiction anymore. It's also why I can't imagine myself as a swinger. There's too much of that superficiality that isn't as big an issue to society as it should be. It's only an issue to the individual, so some people win, and some people lose horribly and die.
I kind of went way off topic here. Sorry.
I don't get men who degrade themselves. I mean, I don't get women who degrade themselves either but women don't have the same kind of liabilities that men do.
I go to Literotica all the time. (Anybody else go?) I really liked to read the lesbian stories on there. But, well...there was a point at which I was beginning to feel the whole penis insecurity thing. Measured for the first time and what not. And I'm thinking "There've got to be a lot of romantic stories about 'yeah the guy has a small penis but the couple is so in love, there's nothing to it'"
Instead I found the millions of horrid, nasty stories about all those women that cheat on their husbands in front of them, tease them about their penis, invite their little friends over and they do it too, SICK, SICK STUFF.
Then the women tell all their friends, so it's like they have some kind of underground list of who to go to. "Let's go to this guy, make fun of his penis, doesn't matter how much it hurts him, and then let's go to this guy because he has a huge penis and have fun." For this reason, men are just being used. And the men with huge penises don't give a shit obviously...they've got huge penises, and raging hardons for girls that want to have sex with him.
Exhibitionism too. Not spying on your neighbor undressing; watching another man have sex with your lover, or even sharing them. Especially since penises play a significant role in feeling like you're overpowering someone, or the painful feeling of being overpowered.
But...I just don't get those guys that let the pain overtake them to the point of liking it. It's like...they get so teased about their penis that they think they'll never enjoy any kind of sex life, so they devote their lives to being deprived, hurt, and humiliated because they think it's all they'll become. So then their brains twist into thinking "this feels nice!" when, anybody with their manhood intact will see he is fucked up.
This is, of course, why I mean it doubly so when I say I'm glad I discovered MoS. Because of this, I'll be safe from that pain. I know there are thousands of men that were saved by this site. What hurts me is that it still exists for other men. After all, this place is still sort of a secret, and it still exists in society at large that small penises are to be laughed at and reflect who you are as a man for some reason, large penises are what you need to enjoy a good sex life, because even if you "know how to move" that doesn't change the fact that a bigger penis would help that to be even better, and average penises are just commonplace and sighed upon by women. And they always talk about that to us like it's OUR fault. I don't get that whole disappointment thing women try to play on us when they clearly know it's what we're born with and can't change.
Penises are a part of nature too. The longest penis gets the sperm to the eggs faster; the thickest penis helps the woman orgasm which helps in sperm transferral. (I've done research. I'm way too obsessive. Call it reaction to the shock.) But penises are also completely irrelevant to the body. So it's like nature chooses who wins from day one; there's no point to any other part of life anymore. It's all about what penis you have. But, oh, that would be too sad for society to come out and tell the truth about. So let's keep it an issue under wraps until it's needed, then we can hurt unfortunate guys and take advantage of willing fortunate guys.
People are scum to each other. I thought romanticism would be my escape. But I can't even think of that. This horrible fear, or knowing it happens to other men, is what kept me from being able to write erotic fiction anymore. It's also why I can't imagine myself as a swinger. There's too much of that superficiality that isn't as big an issue to society as it should be. It's only an issue to the individual, so some people win, and some people lose horribly and die.
I kind of went way off topic here. Sorry.
I don't get men who degrade themselves. I mean, I don't get women who degrade themselves either but women don't have the same kind of liabilities that men do.
