I feel the same. I have found that I always feel way worse masturbating to ���� than my imagination. ���� makes me feel dirty in away.
I have got back into working out and changed my nutrition plus I added testosterone boosting supplements (all legal) and I have had a huge increase in sex...
I have owned a since 2007 Fleshlight (not the same one) and i can say it dose make it more pleasurable. But I am thinking of investing in a doll I have a close friend who did and he says it was worth ever penny ($2200). I have a bit in the savings plus my income tax refund wil more than cover...
I am a Christian also. I believe we are saved by grace alone but I also pray the He convicts me in my heart and lead me to do what is right in His eyes.
I have been ���� free for almost a month now. I have not dedicated myself to no fap yet but I have reduced the amount of times i do it. I am taking in one step at a time.
I wish you success and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
I actualy started P.E back in october 2018. When i bought a penile traction device. I used it on average 4 hours a day for 2 month's. Do to work and renovation and moving in to a new hous i slacked off. I am now getting back to it. When i had started it i was 6 inches erect length and 4.75...